It’s been well over a month since I last wrote up here on this blog. I had a great deal of readers, friends and colleagues asking why I hadn’t posted in such a long while. What’s the deal, what gives, why hadn’t I done that in which they felt through my words, meant so very much to me, that truly special thing that infused and radiated so much passion.
My simple reply was – I just wasn’t feeling it.
When I write here, I write real. I write what comes from the mind, but mostly the heart. I can’t fake it, and I just won’t write for the sake of writing.
I wouldn’t say I was in a total rut or darkly plagued with writer’s block, but perhaps I wasn’t feeling my usual self. I wasn’t flowing with what I needed to be flowing with in order to create and share that worthwhile stuff, the kind of jazz that would make me proud and you happy you just read.
And so I apologize. I apologize to those who perhaps missed my words, my thoughts, my feelings, opinions, advice and experiences. And I apologize to those who expected more from me. Those who expected that no matter what was going on in my life, that’d I still be able to deliver here on this blog.
Hey, I’m only human.
Sometimes we need to step aside for a little while. Sometimes we need to slow the pace down a tad, self-reflect, do some soul searching, regroup and then let loose.
I’m sure I’m not the first to have to go through this and do this, and I can reassure you I will not be the last.
Last night, while relaxing after a great Sunday evening meal, I tore through an article in the latest issue of Men’s Health Best Life focusing on the legendary hip hop artist/business mogul, Jay-Z. Two things stuck out most while devouring this piece: Be yourself. Work hard.
Jay-Z credits his relentless commitment to always remaining true to him, and his unwaveringly hard work ethic, as the keys to his success.
And so it made me think deep. Being true to you is what so many of us, in fact the great majority of us, severely lack today. We lack the belief system and self-confidence day in day out that is full-out required when it comes to building and radiating authenticity, integrity, purpose, service and overall realness. If you’re not being true to you, who the hell are you being true to?
So when I don’t write, it’s for a reason. It’s me being true to what I’m feeling and living at that very moment in my life. It’s not that I’m lazy, I just can’t fake something that should and does mean so much to me.
I was derailed somewhat, in other facets of my life other than simply being laid off back in late 2008. But I’m still here. I simply took a step back and tried to intelligently reconfigure the landscape and vision a little before I plowed through full steam forward.
Life will always throw curveballs, make you travel and journey peaks and valleys, catapult you to unimaginable highs and near-death lows. But that’s life. The beauty of it and the secret to supremacy is, remain real, be true to you, work hard and never, ever, give up.
Sooner or later you’ll come back around. Perhaps this time, bigger, better, leaner, quicker, sharper, smarter and/or stronger.
